Recently, I considered the lack of progress I was experiencing had to do with my expectations. After investing in a side gig that hadn’t provided the financial benefit I had hoped for, I surmised that I had wanted too much. For close to two decades, I wanted to help others embrace a life of abundance and authenticity on a scale much larger than I had experienced to date.
So, in my time of reflection that morning, I thought of how my life seemed to center around a theme of struggle. As a means to alleviate my emotional pain, I determined that instead of lamenting the hardship, I would accept my accomplishments as being “it” for me. I then noticed the IG meme’s stating success was just around the corner would garner more a raised eyebrow than a nod of confirmation. Encouraging songs that wanted me to believe that joy comes in the morning, would cause me to question, “Yeah, but which morning?” “Did I sleep in that morning?”
Rather than get my hopes up to only have them dashed again, I decided I would do whatever it took to be okay with where I was in the moment. I wanted to be okay with what I considered less than what I once hoped for. I would be pleased to assist the occasional client. I would be happy with the infrequent invitation to speak or motivate. Rather than cry about dreams deferred, I would diminish my dreams. Well, that only lasted for so long. No matter what I tried to tell myself, hope kept rising. Dreams continued to form amidst bouts of struggle and challenge.
Seems I was what John Ortberg, in his book The Me I Want to Be, would call a Hope-er. In his book, Ortberg addresses three common attitudes about adversity that were introduced by philosopher Robert Roberts: hope, despair, and resignation.
When we hope, we believe what is to come will be positive and good. Hope helps us to look forward with expectancy. “Hope is not hype,” but sustains us as we anticipate the futures we want. Even when we are dealing with trials; hope comforts us as we wait things out. Those with hope welcome tomorrow, no matter what their today looks like.
Those in despair may express a hope, but they do not believe what they want will happen. Their hope is more like a wish and lacks the anticipation that accompanies real hope. Just thinking about the future can be painful for those who have become despondent about unrealized dreams. Despair can be a toxic and deadly place to camp out in for prolonged periods of time.
Because despair can be so damaging, people will attempt to manage their emotions through resignation. Resignation moves up and down the continuum between hope and despair. I believe this is where I found myself not too long ago. When resigning, the attempt is to avoid the high feeling of hope and the low feeling of despair by lessening our outlook. For me, dreams to reach and impact thousands were reduced to being satisfied to interact with an occasional ten to twenty. This even sounds weighty and confining when you think about it.
If you haven’t figured it out yet, facing adversity with a hope-filled expectation really is the best attitude to possess. Entering the ring against adversity with the belief that we will certainly lose, or at best last only the first round, is not a helpful approach our goals to live authentically and abundantly. Ortberg asserts that being a hope-er is needed so we can be the best version of ourselves. When we hope, we feed our belief for a future that is prosperous and welcoming. When we hope, we quiet the despair and resignation.